i heart ... half way

We are officially at the halfway mark of husband’s three week trip to Turkey. It’s been a challenging and emotionally charged 10 days, but overall I’ve surprised myself and learned a lot about myself as a mum.

The boys are missing him in their own ways: T is crossing off the days on the calendar gleefully each morning, but gets shy and a bit sad when it comes time to Skype, and M has been ridiculously clingy to me, yet delights in telling everyone that “Dadda’s in Turkey”.

As for me, I’m incredibly exhausted, but proud of myself for managing everything. I’m relaxing my routines and learning to enjoy the moments, and (don’t tell anyone) savoring the time away from work. I think I’m going to struggle going back!

Monday was my birthday which kind of amplified my lonely feelings. I felt sorry for myself, had a cry and enjoyed catching up with my parents and brother. Ni knew it would be a hard day, but it’s done and we are back on track. The countdown continues.

Nine sleeps to go.

I heart ... rock n roll

I heart … rock n roll

There’s a commercial that really aggravates me. It’s the one where the snarly hipster daughter is espousing the benefits of oats whilst her snarly white bread mother makes fun of her for ‘discovering The Kinks’. What a b**ch. Tell me, posh lady – would you prefer your daughter ‘discover’ One Direction or Nikki Minaji or […]

Owning my tears

Owning my tears

Warning: this post may be a bit of a downer. Bear with me. Or is it ‘bare’? Nah, that sounds like an invitation for nudity. I’ll stick with ‘bear’ (unless you’re into that kind of thing. No judgement). Husband flew out yesterday. And I think I’ve stopped crying. I didn’t anticipate being so emotional. I […]

i heart ... big adventures

i heart … big adventures

This has been the year of big change for our family. We sold our little cottage and bought (and renovated) my childhood hood home. A massive family wedding. New roles at work for husband and I (and a whole new office for me!). We’ve heralded 2014 the “Year of Biting Off More Than We Can […]

i heart ... Her

i heart … Her

I love watching movies. When I daydream about how I’d spend a day without kids and responsibilities and obligations, it always includes going to the movies. And wine. And sleeping. Husband and I rarely get to sit and watch a movie that doesn’t involve animated animals, so when we do there is a lot of […]

Slow and heavy

Slow and heavy

Monday – 3pm Left home an hour early in the hope that M might fall asleep on the preschool pick-up ride. He did, so now I’m sitting in the car on the side of the road. The car is warm, and the traffic hums as it passes. I’m trying not to fall asleep myself. M […]

Raspberry lemonade days

Raspberry lemonade days

Hold the front page: three nights ago I ventured out after dark, hair did, sans children. This is a noteworthy event. Generally I only leave the house post-sunset to make the mad dash to Woolworths for bread or milk or chocolate. Emergencies. This time it wasn’t a family-sized block of Snack that got me out, […]

i heart birthdays

i heart birthdays

Littlest M is two years old next week. With all that is happening we’ve decided that adding “party planning” is probably not a great idea. I love planning so this is disappointing, but I’ll still manage to get myself in a tizz about cake and gift ideas. I can’t believe M is turning two. The […]


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